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Archive for the month “September, 2012”

Tearing down the old and building a new

Yesterday I went to church and I brought one of my very close friends with me.

In the car on our way to church we were talking about gods plan for our lives. What we are going to do after graduation this year, what colleges we were thinking about attending, How we were going to pay for it, our future careers….And that’s when my mind actually stepped in and faced reality. We are about to step into the REAL world…be on our own and deal with adult choices and adult situations. It’s almost unrealistic how much time flies by.

When our minds began to ponder upon this thought we started talking about Gods will and how we would know what his will for our lives was. We started getting worried and stressed about making the wrong choices and leading our lives in the wrong direction.

But then I realized that there is no such thing as perfect people. We are going to be faced with choices and we may make the wrong decisions but god isn’t going to abandon us…He will make his will and his plan for our life work out no matter what mistakes we make.

God makes a broken life a new one. He tears down the old wall and builds newer more healthier ones.

 

I was surprised when we walked into church and my youth pastor told us we were going to be tearing down our old fellowship hall to make room for the new church we are going to begin to build in a couple of weeks.

He related it to the same things that we were talking about in the car it was very ironic. God works in mysterious ways.

We got to take out all of our stress and bad things out on tearing down the walls and we came out feeling confident and happy.

 

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Grace

My faithful father

enduring friend

your tender mercy’s like a river with no end.

It overwhelms me

covers my sin

each time I come into your presence

I stand in wonder once again

Your grace still amazes me

Your love is still a mystery

each day, I fall on my knees

because your grace

still amazes me.

Skeleton in my closet (Cont)

Shaking exclusively, and shrieking with terror I awoke my Mother to show her the horrible thing That I had witnessed. I knew that when I would tell her she would think I was a nut case but the proof was lying in my closet.

This was the most freakiest thing I have ever experienced!

I went into my mothers room still screaming at the top of my lungs and my mom woke up with fear in her eyes knowing something was wrong.

“What? What is it honey?”

“Come See For yourself.” I said not even attempting to tell her and sound crazy.

When we approached my closet I opened the door and there was nothing there. You’ve gotta be kidding me…How’d it disappear? I know what i saw.

My mother gave me a really strange look.

“What is it? I don’t see anything!” She said.

“Mom, There was a HUMAN skeleton sitting in the middle of my closet. I’m not kidding or lying, I know what I saw!”

She looked at me like I was insane.

“Honey, are you okay? I think you’re just seeing things…there’s no way a skeleton was in here.”

“No, Mom, I’m NOT okay. Would you be okay if you opened up your closet and saw a skeleton? I don’t think so. It was in there, I’m not seeing things.” I told her and I stormed out the door in anger.

 

Great. Now people are going to think I’m a basket case. Who in the world could have taken the skeleton? I know it HAS to be around here somewhere. There was something freaky going on and I was going to get to the end of it.

 

(Still to be continued.)

Hollie

Hollie

Judy Garland

Judy Garland

In my opinion, Judy Garland is absolutely stunning. I love the way the 1900’s actors wore there hair in short thick-curls, and there red lipstick. I wish that the look would come back now! The look is so trendy!!

Skeleton In My Closet…

It was just another normal day, when i awoke to my daily routine. Sleepy eyed and zombie like, i arose from my bed to turn off the horrid sound screeching from my alarm.

I forced my self out of bed and stumbled to the bathroom. I took my shower, brushed my teeth, and went to my room to fix my hair and get dressed.

When I opened my closet to get search for what i wanted to wear I jumped back quickly and shrieked with terror. There was a skeleton sitting in my closet!!!! Literally, a human skeleton!

How did it get in there? It wasn’t in there yesterday!

This. is. Crazy.

My mind went blank.

To Be Continued.

Planking

Wow. This is hilarious yet very scary!!

Girls With Their Hair Up

This guy takes planking to a whole new level.

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The me I want to be

Lately, I have been so out of my mind. Not like “Crazy, Insane” out of my mind, but just sad…

I have felt so inconfident not only with my appearance but with my personality.

I don’t know who I am, or who I want to be. All I know is that I want to be happy again, but I can’t figure out exactly how to do that.

Part of me (Well, Most of me) wants to be the best person I can possibly be. I want to be nicer, and more mature. I want to stop being so negative to myself, and to others. I want to become a better christian and i want to show God that I love him.

Yet the other half of me is just the opposite.

I want to live my life and be free. I want to do what I want to do, and I feel like dedicating myself to god is making me miss out on my life…if that makes sense?

As for my insecurities, I have absolutely no clue what to do. I feel like I am just the ugliest person in the world and it is really making me sad. I think it’s because I’m being so harsh to myself and thinking so negatively about EVERYTHING. I really need to stop. I feel like I am transforming into some monster and I don’t want to.

I have alot of things that I need to improve about myself.

I think I am going to start being more active in Church and start improving the way I act, and the way I think about things. I really need to. I have so many people that look up to me and acting horrible is probably letting them down tremendously and making them think that I’m Hypocritical and that I’m some person i’m not. . I think I want to be the negative person I want to be because society is brainwashing me into thinking that if I’m a christian, I am wierd or “Uncool”. I tend to care alot about what people think of me which isn’t good at all. I really need to get out of that habit and stop living my life for others and live my life how I want to live it.

 

I made a list of all of the things that I absolutely hate about myself, some constructive as well as inconstructive things. The inconstructive things I am going to attempt to become more confident about because I’m stuck with them and theres no changing them.

 

Things I Hate About Me:

My lips

My Teeth

My nose

My clothes

My negativity

My inconfidence

My personality

My wierdness

My awkwardness

My depression

My laziness

I really need to work on making these things better, and/or becoming more confident about them.

 

Through the next few months I am going to try to do this

We are in highschool not kindergarden GROW UP

I cannot stand people who act like they are two years old when they are seventeen!!!

I mean really? Backtalking and disrespecting everyone because you think it’s cool, that is horrible, really. Whenever you get older, you will see that it doesn’t make you look smart, and it doesn’t help you fit in, it just makes you look completely idiotic.

and cussing every breath? That just shows that you have a limited vocabulary.

Really.

Grow up.

 

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