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Archive for the month “November, 2011”


I have come to the conclusion that I hate spanish!!!

Why do we even need to learn another language anyway?



Blubber’s story

Blubber arose and pushed the blazing covers from his sweltering body. Sweat was immersing from his face and he was panting as if he had just ran for five miles (as if he could actually run for that long without tumbling over due to his obesity!). He quickly glanced at the clock that was sitting on an end table located directly beside his bed, it was three forty five, the same exact time he had awoke from the same horrid nightmare the two nights before. Was this becoming a routine? His eyes were watering from the terror that he had just experienced.

Why did he keep having this same nightmare? Was it some kind of warning?

This terrible nightmare consisted of this:


He found himself standing blankly at the very peak of this huge mountain made of delectable, heavenly sweets. The mountain, was no ordinary mountain. This mountain was made of Ice-cream, scattered with sugar-coated sprinkles and scrumptious chocolate chip cookies. To him, this was heaven.

Before he knew it, Blubber found himself devouring this Ice-Cream mountain. As he was cramming his face, with each bite he gained ten pounds. Soon enough blubber ingested all that he could, and he was so close to exploding. Then blubber noticed something that he couldn’t resist.

A luxiourious peice of Cherry Cheescake.He tried to stop his cravings, but he couldn’t. He pushed the cheesecake into his mouth and with a big BANG! Blubber was gone!! His food eating habits had literally led to his death!!!


My Relatioship advice

I have learned the hard way that there are alot of things to know about relationships. Here is some spectacular advice that everyone should take to heart!!!

  • Avoid getting to close too fast.
  • look for friendship, Not love.
  • Always go out with groups, Don’t isolate yourselves.
  • Don’t stay together just for security.
  • Don’t feel like you have to get intimate just to make your relationship last.
  • Don’t try to be someone else to get someone to like you, be yourself!!
  • Put everything in gods hands and realize that whatever happens, happens.

This is helpful advice!!! really!!! (=

The reasoning for my unbearable sleepiness

So I officially declare my dog (sugar) The most craziest, most annoying puppy in the world.!!

I was up until four in the morning, because Sugar kept consistantly barking at who knows what! I got out of bed like a mad woman and yelled at her, as if she could actually interpret what I was saying. Yeah, she didn’t understand at all. She looked up at me with confusion in her eyes, slightly tilted her head at a weird angle, and just continued to bark. Wow.


You swore you wouldn’t hurt me.

You promised me the world.

You said that you would be here, and now your gone and my world is swirled.

I trusted what you said, I fell for you I shouldn’t have.

I should have trusted my instincts instead.

And now I’m hear alone, tears are falling like pouring rain.

I don’t know why I even tried

I don’t know how much longer I can strain.

I can’t trust anyone.

I can’t love anyone.

I’m too afraid.

I’m hurt and I am broken.

No matter how hard I try to speak, my words remain





Friendship <3

I have never fully understood the meaning of friendship. I mean, I know what friendship is,

A friend is someone you talk to and do things with. Someone you are fond of, and someone that shows you the same fondness in return.

A “TRUE” Friend, on the other hand is a completely different story, with completely different meanings.

I have learned what having a true friend really means.

A true friend Loves you no matter what problems or situations that you seem to encounter.

A true friend accepts you for who you are, no matter how many stages or personalities you seem to go through.

A true friend is there for you, no matter what the circumstances may be.

A true friend will cry with you, when your tears are falling.

A true friend is someone that you share many simularities with, as well as many inside jokes with.

A true friend is someone that you can stay up all night with and share your feelings, your emotions, and your life story with.

A true friend is someone who is patient with you, and willing to stay right beside you no matter how annoyed or aggrivated you seem to make them.

A true friend is someone who is willing to take a million extra steps to be with you whenever you need them.

A Best friend is someone who possesses all of these qualities, someone that is the has the most positive influence on you, someone that you can look up to, someone that will always lead you in the right direction.

I am so very proud to say that I have a the most best friend anyone could ever have. God has given me such a great, amazing bestfriend, and I could not show my thankfulness enough.


Thank you so much for wanting to be in my life. I love you more than you will ever know. You are such a big blessing in my life. I have prayed for so long to find a friend that I could count on, a friend like you. Our god is truely a providing god, and I am so glad that he led me to you. You are my best friend.



What is love? Is it just something that you say to a person that you like? Do you actually mean it when you say it to someone?

I recently found myself in this situation.

I was so excited to turn sixteen in July, because I knew that I would be allowed to start dating. I was so very thrilled that I was actually going to be able to take another step in my life.

My very good friend and I started going on dates, but we didn’t want to make our “relationship” official. In this case, Because he was getting ready for college, and I just in highschool.

Our first date, was a double date. We had went to the movies and to dinner, and I felt on top of the world. I felt so grown up, and felt that I had gained more responsibility. Not only did I feel a since of pride, but my feelings for this guy began to increase as well.

At the end of the night, I was the happiest girl in the world.

Then, the time came where summer was over. Fall stepped in to invite a season of sadness. He had left for college.

We texted daily, and even though he was no longer close, our feelings, and our relationship began to get more close, and more strong. I had began feeling, feelings for him that I have never felt about anyone.

His first break was in october, and we had planned a date. I had waited weeks, and weeks for this date. I was so excited. We were going to have dinner at a friends, and then go to the Football game at the highschool.

I got home from school, changed clothes, and then headed off to my friends house to help her prepare for the dinner. As time began to fade away until his arrival, my heart started beating faster. I was so nervous!!

And..There it was. His red car pulling into the driveway!! my face turned red, I don’t know why. I could not beleive how nervous i was. There he was…He got out of his car walked up to the house and knock..knock..knock! I hesitated before i opened the door and tried to calm down.

I opened the door, and there he stood, Tall, long hair, and just a bit of facial hair covering his chin. He looked older from the last time i had saw him Before i knew it he had me in the biggest bear hug ever!!

My emotions, and feelings began to race.

dinner went by swiftly. We ate, and then thanked my friends for the dinner and headed off to the football game.

After the game, we went to the park to go stargazing.

There he said it. The three words that made me unsure about the situation that i  was getting myself into.

The way he said it was so sweet.

This is what he said to me. I remember the words exactly.

You are so beautiful. I’m not just talking about your beautiful eyes, your beautiful flowing hair, your beautiful smile, and your all around stunning appearance. I’m talking about your beautiful personality. You are so attractive inside and outside. I like everything about you. Your randomness, your seriousness, your laugh, your humor, everything!! And in this, I can no longer say that I like you..But Hollie, I love you.

You can see how this completely took over my heart. I didn’t know what else to say but the same in return.

I classified this night as the best night of my life.

As the night passed away, I began to think more and more about the words he had said to me, as well as the words I said in return. We began a relationship.

I have always told myself that whenever I fell in love, I would know. So why was i doubting so hard? Was it because God was trying to warn me that I was going to end up getting hurt? This is when I realized that Maybe I had said the wrong thing, and maybe us starting a relationship now was spoiling something that could happen in the future.

But still, I kept pushing harder and harder, as well as he was pushing harder and harder for deeper intimacy and a more serious relationship. We nurtured this love..this doubtful love when it just needed to be ended.

This past week, he had came home for thanksgiving break. I had been looking foward to this for so long, but it ended up being the worst week of my life. We ended up getting to close to quickly, even though we knew our relationship was not going to last. Two days later, we ended breaking off everything, and my world was devistated. Not only with regret, but with shamefulness.

In this, I realized that the only “True Love” is God’s love. God is the only one that will always be there in my life. God loves me no matter what I do, and nothing could ever break his love. I am proud that we took responsibilty and broke everything off before it carried any further.

I am also very happy that this didn’t ruin our friendship. Do I love him? Yes, I beleive I do, But not a love that needs to turn into something serious right now. I’m not ready for a serious relationship.

Who knows what the future holds for us!! But right now, We are doing what is best for both of us! (=

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