My awesome crazy life.

On Christ the solid rock I stand, All other ground is sinking sand!

For you Abbie…

seems the only one who doesn’t see your beauty

Is the face in the mirror looking back at you

You walk around here thinking you’re not pretty

But that’s not true, ’cause I know you
Hold on baby, you’re losing it

The water’s high, you’re jumping into it

And letting go and no one knows
That you cry

but you don’t tell anyone

That you might not be the golden one

And you’re tied together with a smile

But you’re coming undone
I guess it’s true that love was all you wanted

‘Cause you’re giving it away like it’s extra change

Hoping it will end up in his pocket

But he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
Oh, ’cause it’s not his price to pay

Not his price to pay
Hold on baby, you’re losing it

The water’s high, you’re jumping into it

And letting go and no one knows
That you cry but you don’t tell anyone

That you might not be the golden one

And you’re tied together with a smile

But you’re coming undone
Hold on baby, you’re losing it

The water’s high, you’re jumping into it

And letting go and no one knows
That you cry but you don’t tell anyone

That you might not be the golden one

And you’re tied together with a smile

But you’re coming undone
You’re tied together with a smile

But you’re coming undone
Goodbye, baby

With a smile, baby, baby

Abbie, You’re so beautiful even though I know you don’t see it. Everything about you is amazing, from the inside to the outside you are just gorgeous. I wish that you could understand that, but instead, you’re blinded to your own beauty. God made you who you are for a reason.! You’re a unique individual and there is a purpose for your life even though you may not realize it yet. I know that life is hard sometime, but i promise that you will soon find gods plan. You mean the world to me, and I love you girl.!


Dear Abbie

I just want you to know that I love you with all of my heart.

Even though we barely talk, your friendship means more to me than anything! I know you don’t think so, but you are such a big part of my life and my heart. No matter how much we go without talking to one another, No matter what changes or phases either of us may go through in life, I will never ever stop being there for you.! You will always be dear to me! I love you girl!


To forgive someone is such a hard thing to do, especially when the mistake they made seems almost impossible to forgive. But, Without forgiveness, what would our lives amount to? Holding grudges and holding peoples pasts against them, even when they have apologized is wrong. What if Jesus did that? What if every mistake we made, and every sin was never forgiven and we had to live with it the rest of our lives? Life would be so depressing and everyone would hate one another. Just because someone messes up doesn’t mean you have to hate them especially when they’re trying to make things right…and when they have realized that what they’ve done is wrong. Jesus said Forgive 70×7. 

Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven. Matthew 18:22


Forgive and forget…Let people try to do better don’t hold grudges.

So, There’s this guy.

I’ve known him for years. and, I CANNOT believe I’m admitting this, but…

I’m really starting to develop feelings for him, and it’s really weird because I would have never, ever, ever thought that I would like someone like him.

The problem is, I don’t think he likes me…nor will ever like me the way that I want him to. 

I’m sooooooo confused,

I just woke up one morning and just had him in my mind…and I was like..”What the heck”? Because there was no reason for him to be in my mind…and he just stayed in my mind and is still in there..and the more I ponder upon the thought, the more I realize that I like him.

I wish this feeling would just go away! I hate having a *Crush?* If that’s what you want to call it, when the person doesn’t feel the same in return.

Now I’m just sitting here thinking about what to do…Lol!

this is so weird.


I can’t stand this feeling anymore…I’m so tired of feeling sad and angry everyday of my life. I feel so unhappy and I don’t know how to make this horrible feeling go away. I used to be so happy and confident and i don’t understand why that feeling was replaced with this one.

I feel so lonely, like i have no one who understands me. 

All i want is to be happy.

Tearing down the old and building a new

Yesterday I went to church and I brought one of my very close friends with me.

In the car on our way to church we were talking about gods plan for our lives. What we are going to do after graduation this year, what colleges we were thinking about attending, How we were going to pay for it, our future careers….And that’s when my mind actually stepped in and faced reality. We are about to step into the REAL world…be on our own and deal with adult choices and adult situations. It’s almost unrealistic how much time flies by.

When our minds began to ponder upon this thought we started talking about Gods will and how we would know what his will for our lives was. We started getting worried and stressed about making the wrong choices and leading our lives in the wrong direction.

But then I realized that there is no such thing as perfect people. We are going to be faced with choices and we may make the wrong decisions but god isn’t going to abandon us…He will make his will and his plan for our life work out no matter what mistakes we make.

God makes a broken life a new one. He tears down the old wall and builds newer more healthier ones.


I was surprised when we walked into church and my youth pastor told us we were going to be tearing down our old fellowship hall to make room for the new church we are going to begin to build in a couple of weeks.

He related it to the same things that we were talking about in the car it was very ironic. God works in mysterious ways.

We got to take out all of our stress and bad things out on tearing down the walls and we came out feeling confident and happy.




My faithful father

enduring friend

your tender mercy’s like a river with no end.

It overwhelms me

covers my sin

each time I come into your presence

I stand in wonder once again

Your grace still amazes me

Your love is still a mystery

each day, I fall on my knees

because your grace

still amazes me.

Skeleton in my closet (Cont)

Shaking exclusively, and shrieking with terror I awoke my Mother to show her the horrible thing That I had witnessed. I knew that when I would tell her she would think I was a nut case but the proof was lying in my closet.

This was the most freakiest thing I have ever experienced!

I went into my mothers room still screaming at the top of my lungs and my mom woke up with fear in her eyes knowing something was wrong.

“What? What is it honey?”

“Come See For yourself.” I said not even attempting to tell her and sound crazy.

When we approached my closet I opened the door and there was nothing there. You’ve gotta be kidding me…How’d it disappear? I know what i saw.

My mother gave me a really strange look.

“What is it? I don’t see anything!” She said.

“Mom, There was a HUMAN skeleton sitting in the middle of my closet. I’m not kidding or lying, I know what I saw!”

She looked at me like I was insane.

“Honey, are you okay? I think you’re just seeing things…there’s no way a skeleton was in here.”

“No, Mom, I’m NOT okay. Would you be okay if you opened up your closet and saw a skeleton? I don’t think so. It was in there, I’m not seeing things.” I told her and I stormed out the door in anger.


Great. Now people are going to think I’m a basket case. Who in the world could have taken the skeleton? I know it HAS to be around here somewhere. There was something freaky going on and I was going to get to the end of it.


(Still to be continued.)



Judy Garland

Judy Garland

In my opinion, Judy Garland is absolutely stunning. I love the way the 1900’s actors wore there hair in short thick-curls, and there red lipstick. I wish that the look would come back now! The look is so trendy!!

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